episode_0015

Seven hours have passed since I asked the other employees to not let Sarah come near me. When I had breakfast, tea time at lunch, and snacks, there was only Mel behind me.

Occasionally, when I feel gazed upon while walking down the hallway or in the garden, I turn my head and Sarah’s reddish-brown hair briefly passes by the window and then disappears.

The sad sight of him looking at me from afar was so cute and lovely that I almost burst out laughing, but I held back. If you laugh out of nowhere, Mel will be surprised.

That evening.

“I’m the only one again.”

When I came down to the restaurant, not only was the head of the house sick, the little brother whose face was not visible, but even my mother was gone.

It’s quiet and I feel comfortable. As I was sitting at my seat waiting for my food to come out, Mel came in with a moving tray in tow.

“Mel, have you checked your father’s physical condition?”

“No. Starting with the head butler, the head maid, and the hostess, they are all guarding the head of the household. It was impossible to even get in.”

“Really? It’s a shame. Still, I get the feeling. Since my mother didn’t come down to the restaurant, I guess today is a critical day. You’re probably crying right now, hugging your feverish father. So, what’s on the menu today?”

“Steak grilled to medium rare with onion soup and beef tenderloin.”

I nodded and began to eat quietly. Lately, I’ve only been eating meat and meat and meat and meat. At times like this, I want to enter the academy as quickly as possible.

‘Why are you bothering Miss Ceria!’

That’s right, I died many times because of that damn main character.

How many times have I thought over the reasons why I couldn’t say it out loud?

‘This is so disgusting. ‘Did you hate losing that child’s place as your fiancé, stepping down from your position as my fiancé, that much?’

Do you think that someone is keeping your position as your fiancé because they like it? Don’t be funny.

If I were to step down from the position of your fiancé, I would have to go for an arranged marriage with some other old man who made his own money or the head of a count family with unpleasant tastes, so I clenched my teeth and stuck with it.

How many times have you lost your temper in front of someone you couldn’t communicate with even when you spoke to them?

“Um.”

He quietly sliced the meat and put it in his mouth, then closed his eyes and savored the meat in his mouth. After all, if you eat something delicious, even bad thoughts will go away quickly.

I quietly drank my water and put down my fork and knife for a moment.

“Mel. That medicine must have arrived at the pharmacy by now, right?”

“It was piled up like a mountain there. Due to their nature of working for as much as they get, they would have chosen only the best products.”

“Phew, that’s funny. Instead of destroying the cave that is eating away at the kingdom, they are using it for their own use and even repairing it so that it can survive. Nobles are so funny.”

“I think I can be in this position because of such nobles.”

“That’s true too. Then, let’s pretend that what I said earlier never happened.”

He grinned and cut the meat. Memories of the last episode came back to me once again as I felt the meat running down my hand and the blood oozing out.

‘The witch is over there!! catch!’

‘She is an evil woman who killed the parents who gave birth to her and raised her!!’

‘It must have been possessed by the devil!’

‘Give me back my mom!!’

A rainy day. I killed the head of the family, my mother, and my younger brother by tearing their throats with my own hands. He poisoned the meals of the employees who didn’t yet know about it, poisoning them all, and hummed as he walked around the mansion where every single one of them died.

I told myself that no one was bothering me anymore, so I dragged the bodies of the smooth maids who had died after drinking poison, gathered them together, jumped on them, and enjoyed the warmth of the corpses that had not yet cooled down. Well, once the maggots started growing in it, I didn’t need it anymore, so I threw it in the cellar.

After removing the bodies, Young Ji-min was invited to the mansion… … . They were tortured and killed one by one. At that time, did I look at Young Ji-min and say that they were rioters who participated in the rebellion?

Haha, I feel embarrassed thinking about it now. I wasn’t in my right mind back then.

‘Crazy bitch!!’

‘Isn’t the sky scary?’

‘You damn bitch!’

‘Go to hell!!’

Then… … . How did you get caught? Oh yeah. Inquisitor. Another noble, worried about the condition of the head of the family who had not been seen for a long time, saw everyone dead in the mansion and called the Inquisitor.

On a rainy day, I drink water barefoot and climb the thorny wooden planks. Forced to kneel――

[Execute!!]

Yeah, that happened. Was that definitely the 14th regression? I was exhausted and exhausted, so I killed everyone I could, and was framed as a witch possessed by the devil and put on the guillotine.

Oh, I feel bad. I need to chew the meat quickly. I felt better when I stabbed the well-cut meat with a fork and put it in my mouth.

“Oh, it’s raining.”

“Huh? That’s right.”

As Mel said, I looked out the window and saw that it was pouring rain.

What, did you create the same weather as back then to assault my memory? Thank you too. I’m sorry, but it’s already past time for me to be tormented by memories.

I still couldn’t stop muttering to myself, but I laughed, cut up the remaining meat, ate it, and got up.

“I will be washing in the large public bath, so please bring me a dress to change into when I am finished.”

“Yes, lady.”

I left Mel, who was putting away the dishes, and headed to the large public bathhouse. On days like this, I just want to take a bath. no. Since you just want to get caught in the rain and you can’t, do you give yourself vicarious satisfaction by taking a bath?

Trying to calm my confused mind, I went into the large public bath, took off the clothes I was wearing, and jumped into the water.

‘Aaaahhh!!!’

‘The blood… … . Not enough blood… … .’

‘Please save me, please save me… … !!’

The water in the bath was only for a moment, but I slowly blinked my eyes when I saw the hallucination that it was stained with red blood.

Things have been a little strange lately. Don’t you shed tears over nothing special? Don’t you feel bad and want to bother Sarah? I was filled with useless sentiments, and the last episode came to mind, and suddenly my lower abdomen felt numb――

“Ah.”

I’m already at the age where my period starts. For some reason, I thought I’d become more sensitive these days.

When I saw that the water around me was slightly red, I got out of the water and made an imprint on my stomach.

“Because you have nothing to write about in the future.”

I have no intention of having children, but menstruation only makes my stomach hurt and is annoying, so it’s better not to have it.

As the curse of incapacity, stasis, and degeneration was engraved into the engraving, the blood flowing down my leg gradually stopped.

“That’s it.”

After confirming that the bleeding had completely stopped, I erased the imprint, washed my bloody lower body and legs thoroughly, and entered the bath again.

Although I felt a bit of a loss, it is normal for my mood swings to worsen like this every time I have my period. I don’t want to be forced to recall memories from the last episode.

It hurts your body and forces you to bring up painful memories, but who would like it?

I gently closed my eyes and sank into the water.

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The next morning. When I came down to the restaurant, my mother was sitting with a blank expression on her face. This time, my younger brother was there too, and it seemed like he came to take care of my mother when she collapsed.

In the distant future, what will happen if word is heard that the head of the family has died at the hands of his younger brother? I almost burst into laughter thinking about my family relationship falling apart, but I sat in my seat hiding my emotions with a sad expression.

Meal time quieter than ever. I looked at my mother first and opened my mouth.

“Mother, father… … .”

In response to my question, my mother smiled bitterly and held my hand.

“Yesterday evening was a difficult time, but how did you overcome it well? … .”

“Ah… … . I’m so glad… … !”

I pretended to be happy, put my hands together and pretended to pray, with tears in my eyes, and my mother stroked my head.

“I heard that you were by his side, protecting and praying for your father. Thank you… … .”

“I just did it because I wanted to, it’s not something I should be thankful for at all, mother.”

I said that and smiled, then turned my head towards my younger brother who was thinking about something without saying a word.

“Arsien, why have you never visited your father?”

“I was busy.”

“No one saw you come out of the room, so that means you were busy. And, your father is in critical condition and you are saying that your work is more important!?”

“There’s nothing to know! If you don’t know anything, just shut up!”

When I fired a little, I immediately shouted bingo at the sight of my younger brother baring his teeth.

My mother yelled at my younger brother, who was baring his teeth at me with his eyes wide open.

“Arsien! What kind of manner of speaking is that to your sister!”

“Ha, is even your mother saying that to me now? That’s it. I will go up to my room first.”

Arsien stood up with a look of exhaustion, and his mother, who was unable to look after herself because she was busy taking care of the head of the family, followed Arsien and fell down, touching her forehead.

“Arsien! Arcien!! Your mother is talking now, where… … ! Haha… … !”

“Mother!! Is there anyone there! Mother, mother!”

Employees came rushing in and took my mother, who had fallen unconscious, to her room.

Once again, I was the only one left in the restaurant, and I erased the expression I was making after confirming that the last employee to leave was closing the door.

“Noisy from the morning.”

I brushed the dust off my dress and sat down.

Just like last night, Mel came in with a moving tray, and I decided to move up my plan a little, thinking that the matriarch’s illness might get better sooner than expected.

“Mel, go to Sarah and tell her that if she gets the medicine to cure your father’s condition, you can restore your relationship with me. ah. In addition to the young man’s drugstore, there are probably two more drugstores open, so don’t forget to say the name of the drugstore politely.”

“Dear Sarah, are you speaking?”

This morning it was roast lamb, white bread, and soup.

Meat again. I should tell you that I want fish for dinner tonight, not beef or lamb.

I just get tired of meat.

“Yes. I was originally going to tell you tomorrow, but it seems like your father’s condition has improved earlier than expected.”

“… … yes. I will do as you wish.”

“Okay, thank you for your hard work.”

He grinned and cut the meat.

The tingly taste of my hands lingered around my fingertips.