In This World, the Police Officer Became Part of the Violent Crimes Unit(9)

Ah, I didn’t want this.

With a sigh, words of despair burst out.

Contemplation and exploration of the unknown. She spent a lot of time trying to elucidate the unknown that she occasionally discovered throughout her life.

A hobby? No, it’s not that simple.

Her exploration of the unknown was an essential choice for her survival.

Beasts that merely resemble her are spread all over the world. They are all stupid, pathetic, and dull things wandering around.

Living in such a world without any fun is like a terrible curse. Giving up what makes you happy in such a world is the same as giving up your life.

That’s why she did it.

Seeing Detective Lee Munsu, who had taken down the Chosen Ones, being hugged by a woman resembling New Hope, she became curious about what that feeling would be like.

Unable to understand how they could smile like that, she thought of a way to uncover this unknown.

Method. Sai came up with one method. That method was to become a powerless and weak woman.

Implementing the method she came up with is a way that could deny all her thoughts so far and erase everything she had built up and created.

But for the sole purpose of uncovering the unknown, Sai smiled and erased her memories and removed her power.

Simply ‘acting’ wouldn’t work as Detective Lee Munsu would easily see through it, so she had to really eliminate it.

If a powerless woman who knows nothing and is thrown alone into the world experiences unreasonable things, there’s a high possibility that Detective Lee Munsu, whom Sai has observed so far, won’t be able to ignore it.

Of course, she knows how stupid this is. There’s no certainty that Detective Lee Munsu really won’t ignore her if she loses her memories.s are too fragile, sway like reeds, and are vile creatures.

But seeing him always the same, not giving up and not yielding even in the trials she prepared, Sai thought he might be different and.

Sai implemented her plan.

But, ah, she shouldn’t have done that. The woman felt tears that wouldn’t stop.

Sai is originally a meticulous person. So she prepared a trigger to regain her memories in advance, and set up a situation where that trigger could be activated.

She calculated how her subordinates would move in her absence. She calculated everything about what her memory-lost self would say and what would happen as a result.

And today. Under the setting sun, her plan was fully executed and completed without a single error.

Everything went according to plan. She also solved the question of how it would feel to be held by him.

She even created a situation to clean up a snake that coveted her position in a petty way.

But, she didn’t expect this.

All the time spent with him was so happy. To the point where she didn’t want to let go even if it meant giving up everything she had.

Eating meals together, sleeping, waking up, starting the day together.

Sai felt happiness doing things with Detective Lee Munsu that she had never even thought about before, considering them meaningless acts throughout her life so far.

Ah, I was lonely. I was a lonely and cold person to the point of being pitiful. What caught her eye about the man before her wasn’t interest in his values and actions.

She felt the emotion called ‘love’ like the people she had seen many times throughout her life and mocked every time.

Sai couldn’t stop crying and laughing. It feels like water is filling her head and a dagger is stabbing and crushing her heart.

It’s ridiculous that she only now realized what love is, and because everything is over now that she’s realized this emotion.

Detective Lee Munsu instantly realized that she had regained her memories and fired his gun.

Seeing him glaring at her with fierce eyes, Sai felt pain as if her heart was being torn out.

I don’t like it. I don’t like those eyes. He was wary of her until the very end, but he didn’t make such eyes. Hoping he would look at her with the same gaze as before, Sai blurted out words like an excuse.

“But, all the words I just said were sincere. Deputy chief. I enjoyed eating meals with you for 2 months, I felt warm spending time together, I’m happy enough to cry because you hugged me. Ah, yes, I was curious about the name of this emotion.”

“Now, now I know what this is. …Aah- This can’t be. Deputy chief. If, if I repent for everything I’ve done and ask for forgiveness, if I say I won’t do bad things anymore – will you, accept me?”

He said he would wait for her when she had lost her memories.

He who showed kindness to a woman with nothing in the world, saying if she admitted her crimes and received punishment.

Wouldn’t she, even her current self, be forgiven if she did that? Sai asked with a mixture of expectation and fear, not knowing what kind of face she was making herself.

And he. Detective Lee Munsu, the man she fell in love with for the first time, spoke so coldly and firmly.

“You killed people.”

I know.

“How can you get forgiveness from people who are already dead?”

They were just beasts that resembled her. The person she wants forgiveness from isn’t those guys but the man in front of her.

“And the person you should ask forgiveness from isn’t me. You should ask forgiveness from the people you killed.”

He stated coldly. Looking at him sending a hate-filled gaze while gritting his teeth, Sai instinctively knew.

“But do you, remember even one of the people you killed?”

That she could never go back to a few hours ago now.

Her head understood everything he was trying to say. She couldn’t emotionally sympathize, but her head understood.

He said the person who should receive an apology isn’t him but the people Sai has killed and hurt so far.

But no matter how much Sai thought about who she had destroyed and how, nothing came to mind.

Is there anyone who remembers the shape of an ant they stepped on while walking? Can anyone remember how crushed grass was trampled?

It’s not about being smart or not. It’s a difference in interest. And Sai herself has been killing people with the sensation of trampling ants and grass like that until now.

“And I’m really, sincerely curious, but. Can you truly, honestly be certain yourself that you won’t kill people again after this?”

No. Even if you try to be careful about stepping on ants, you’ll end up stepping on them, and she can’t live while paying attention to such trivial things.

“You bastard.”

He said when Sai couldn’t say anything.

Sai was in pain seeing him look at her with eyes full of contempt and disgust. Pain like molten iron filling her insides and thousands of needles stabbing her entire body runs through her.

I want to turn it back. I hate him making that face. I’d rather be in the state of lost memories.

If only I didn’t know everything, if I could go back to before, I want to go back.

Isn’t there a way? I was happy until just a few hours ago, why did it have to turn out like this?

“I don’t like this…”

A sound like crying leaks from Sai’s mouth. It was a murmur mixed with despair and grief.

Meanwhile, Sai felt the vibrations from below stop along with the sound of sirens coming closer.

Contrary to her heart that felt like it would break at any moment, her body moved on its own.

She slammed the ground with force. The result of that simple action was by no means light.

Physically, the ground flips over and the entire redevelopment area shakes and starts collapsing as if an earthquake occurred.

It was a catastrophe that could be called a disaster. The police cars rushing in couldn’t withstand the impact and flipped over, and the redevelopment area collapsed in an instant.

In the midst of that, Detective Lee Munsu was swept up in the shock spreading in all directions, and Sai reached out her arm to save him as soon as she saw him, but-

“Detective-nim!”

New Hope saves Detective Lee Munsu before her. She was like a bird, kicking off concrete and building fragments that could serve as foothold and flying around in that disaster scene.

Sai looked at New Hope with bloodshot eyes. New Hope who broke through that catastrophe too easily.

Detective Lee Munsu held in her arms. And New Hope looking at him with worried eyes.

Seeing that scene, she felt blood rushing to her head and a sensation of her reason about to snap.

Why can’t she be there? Sai thought that and felt her heart pounding as if it would burst, and pondered what this emotion was, then soon got the answer.

Jealousy. Yes, this emotion is jealousy.

I am here. Here as his enemy. It’s too cursing that I babbled about being here as a criminal he must catch as a police officer, but New Hope is by his side.

It was like that from the beginning. The one who saved him and whom he trusts is New Hope.

Sai bit her lip to the point of bleeding. New Hope was a natural-born superpower user like herself.

She was a being that could be seen as a person other than herself. But how exactly were she and him different that she is antagonistic to him, while New Hope is by his side?

What exactly is that difference? In her view, wasn’t this world a vile place with only beasts resembling herself? What kind of world did New Hope see?

It’s unreasonable, it’s unfair. I’d rather make it all as if it never happened and start over. But such a thing is impossible.

Then what should I do? Should I give up everything?

No, no. Absolutely not. If I give up here, everything is over.

Slimy thoughts kept surging and moving her brain, but her thoughts made creaking sounds as if rust had formed in her head.

Thoughts, don’t connect.

“You, what exactly is your identity?”

Suddenly New Hope asked Sai. At her question, Sai slowly felt her thoughts moving in a skewed direction.

Who am I? A criminal. The worst villain who killed people by modern society’s standards, plunged the world into chaos, and feels no guilt for it.

That’s the difference between herself and New Hope. But even if recognized, it’s a huge wall that can never be crossed.

Then, then.

If that wall disappears, if laws and justice all become meaningless, couldn’t I be by his side too?

“Haha.”

Even Sai herself didn’t know how such thoughts connected. It was an absurd thought process even to herself.

But- there’s a possibility.

New Hope’s face hardens seeing Sai’s smile. The only other superpower user like herself. Sai had felt interest close to fondness looking at her, but not anymore.

That woman has certainly become an obstacle to her plans.

But she can’t deal with her here now. Simply killing New Hope is not enough to bring her down.

New Hope must lose all the trust and faith she receives from Detective Lee Munsu and die. It must be so. So-

“…I don’t know your identity. But I won’t let you rampage any further!”

New Hope rushed in with clenched fists. Sai kicked her away at a speed several times faster.

“Gak?!”

New Hope flew backwards in shock, as if unable to follow her speed even with her eyes.

She had expectations since she’s a superpower user like herself, but she’s still too weak. She might be able to cut her throat if she grows more, but it’s impossible now.

Sai looked down at such a New Hope, then looked at the unconscious Detective Lee Munsu. What was contained in those eyes was affection.

“If everything that could be called a wall dividing you and me disappears, Deputy chief. Surely we could be together then? In such a world, we could be together, right?”

Sai smiled a smile as beautiful as a goddess and as terrifying as a god of death.

The sunset had completely faded and the sky was dyed in darkness. She disappeared from that place.

And where she headed was the place where her right-hand woman was. Yagi. She was sitting in her office like a doll.

Yagi’s eyes widened seeing Sai who came to find her. She seemed surprised.

Sai smiled looking at such a Yagi. She didn’t move at the last moment as Sai wanted.

She had anticipated how Yagi would react if she didn’t receive her orders for several months, and she came to find her memory-lost self as expected.

She followed the words her memory-lost self said very admirably.

A useful doll that follows her words well. It’s worthy of praise, but there’s still something this thing has to do.

“Yagi.”

“Yes, Sai-nim.”

“I want to break everything. Will you help me?”

She intends to break everything, including everything Yagi has built up so far. Yagi would know such thoughts of Sai too. So Sai asked Yagi as a final test.

And to such a test from Sai, Yagi answered.

“Of course. Everything, if that’s what you want.”

A perfect score answer. Yagi knelt before Sai. Sai couldn’t hold back the bursting laughter and laughed.