episode_0204

Not an Awakened Person (2) – One Mind Salvation Church Paradise

“Wow – amazing.”

An exclamation with a constant tone, like the sound of a machine.

It was too dull to be the reaction of someone who heard the entire conversation with Seongju.

“I don’t think that statement is completely wrong, right?”

“I don’t think I said that with that kind of reaction in mind either.”

“Huh? The main character is angry.”

“… … Really-.”

Are you doing this too? … .

Her dry answer made my shoulders relax and at the same time, a strange laugh escaped me.

I leaned back on the soft sofa and took in the bright lighting that did not suit the dark night.

I feel uncomfortable.

It wasn’t just uncomfortable, it was so uncomfortable that my whole body itched and I felt like I was dying.

“Do you feel uncomfortable?”

“Yes. I feel so uncomfortable that I have never felt so uncomfortable as I did today.”

“If you’re that uncomfortable, you can do whatever you want. Why are you so uncomfortable?”

“… … It’s inconvenient because that doesn’t work.”

It didn’t really matter whether what he said was true or a lie.

But like he said, that bastard from Seongju planted a fucking bomb in my head.

No, without realizing it, I attached a wick to a hidden bomb.

“Even if what he says is only half true… … If there is even one awakened person similar to me… … .”

It wasn’t scary at all that there was someone as strong as me.

In the first place, I wasn’t even sure that I was in the position of independent child control.

but-

I gritted my teeth as I watched Seong Ga-eul working hard at organizing documents at her office desk.

“It’s okay to lose, but it’s not okay to lose netorare.”

“Toto- You’re talking in a vulgar term that I don’t understand.”

“You don’t have to understand. I’m just saying that increasing even the 1% chance is fucking stupid.”

I am never afraid of my defeat.

The only thing I’m afraid of is the moment when I can’t take care of my executives.

Seong Ga-eul, who was looking at me with narrowed eyes, studied my expression and clicked her tongue lightly.

“… … Can’t you feel safe with the heavenly shield?”

I smiled faintly at her question and stared out the window.

Even at night with blue moonlight and during the day with warm sunlight.

The ‘heavenly shield’ that always protects paradise.

“Uh. That will never work. I don’t think the system that forcibly fucked me through events and all will let me do that- more than anything- ”

Even as I continue to talk more, I clearly remember the battle in Guro-gu.

The squirming face that was jumping up and down to provoke me and the black mana that covered its whole body.

“There’s no way there won’t be another guy like Seo Joo-won.”

“Really, that damn Seo Joo-won Taryeong- Thanks to you, I can clearly picture the face of a person I’ve never seen before.”

Seong Ga-eul frowned as if she was bored and asked me one question after another.

“Do you really regret not being able to get that awakened person named Seo Joo-won?”

“It’s not that I regret it – I just think it would have been a little more reassuring if he was by my side?”

“Oh… … A head collector who can be trusted by your side?”

“We can fix the mental problem.”

If you think about it, all the executives we have recruited so far were similar… … .

I hurriedly spoke to Seong Ga-eul, who nodded in agreement with what I was saying.

“Still, that kid wasn’t that good. Even though he’s crazy, he’s crazy in a strange way.”

“… … But Seongju can communicate?”

I nodded quietly in response to the question that was hinting at the core.

“More than that, I had a strong feeling that I should kill Seo Joo-won on the spot as soon as I saw him, but Seong-ju… … ”

I shook my head, recalling the intuition I felt when face-to-face with Lee Hye-sung.

When the neck was being strangled with telekinesis, the eyes quickly looked around and the hands hesitated as if they were about to grab something.

Even after recognizing several signs of preparation for battle, the weight was still focused solely on me.

It never occurred to me that I would lose to Lee Hye-seong.

However, as I said before, I just continue to feel uneasy.

I definitely don’t feel bad about killing Seo Joo-won – no.

It must have been because he killed Seo Joo-won so easily that he felt so uncomfortable.

“Once again, as a religious leader, do whatever you want. You can prepare for the future, and there is no problem if you just skip the event and erase the discomfort. I didn’t see any event failure penalty anyway, so…”

A word repeated by Seong Ga-eul, who shrugs as if asking what’s the problem.

future.

Clearly, Seong Ga-eul had talked to me about the future long before Seong Ju.

There is a possibility that the stage will become wider.

That kind of you-

“Autumn.”

“Why?”

“Was it beneficial for us in the future to save combustion iron?”

“… … I guess so, right? For awakened people, more is usually more.”

But why-

“Why didn’t you object when I said it was better to kill the burnt iron?”

Seong Ga-eul, who was looking at me without answering right away, chuckled.

“I wonder if our religious leader will do a good job. Saving combustion iron did not have such simple advantages… … .”

More than anything-

She looked at me with her big eyes, even the ones with pretty pupils.

“You don’t have to be perfect at everything. You are still good enough – no, you are so good that I can’t do better than this.”

perfect.

I burst out laughing at her unexpected comfort and felt a sense of déjà vu.

In the same vice president’s office as then – the same comfort as then.

Just like back then-

I am the person who is furthest from the word perfect.

Just guessing.

From an idiot who couldn’t even do multiplication properly even though his intelligence increased-

In the ship of Theseus, where I was somewhat convinced that something else had changed in my ship-

How much has changed?

The more I reflected on myself, the more clearly one sentence came to mind.

“… … It’s not perfect enough already, Gaeul.”

“… … .”

The office is filled with silence with the unanswered voice.

I kept looking up at the lights twinkling on the ceiling.

Since when did it become like this?

No, did it have to go like this?

The beginning was clearly just an expression to satisfy my base and base sexual desires.

At some point, I came to my senses and realized that so much had changed.

“… … Is it difficult?”

“… … Just.”

I shook my head and thought about the two men who were the main culprits of this situation.

“One guy has a mental illness but no physical evidence… … However, it feels uncomfortable to just kill it all at once, and it feels uncomfortable to not kill it… … . But I feel like I’m being dragged around because I’m trying to do what he wants.”

“The other guy is so picky that it’s annoying, but in a way, it seems like he’s holding his picky standards only on me… … . When I think about it, there really is nothing wrong with this.”

In my heart, I want to throw myself into Meteor like Seo Joo-won without any worries… … .

If I do that, I’m concerned about something that I have a high chance of losing.

In the end, what I get through this arduous process is… … .

I stared at Seong Ga-eul, who was carefully examining my face.

Even when I think about it now, it was just my own treasure that I obtained quite miraculously.

“… … Ha.”

Seong Ga-eul, who turned her head to see my eyes carefully examining her features and burst out laughing as if she was dumbfounded, turned her head again to look at me.

And without moving a single eye, he made eye contact with me.

“Yes. Enjoy it to your heart’s content. This is a special service provided only to our Salvation Church leader.”

“If seeing someone’s face is a special service, then the executives of Salvation Church are—”

“Then shall we at least wear a mask so that only our religious leader can see it?”

Looking at her asking with wide eyes, I automatically shook my head.

“Why? When the fox pretending to be a dog took off his mask, did you say all the admiration?”

A fox pretending to be a dog?

I didn’t immediately understand the metaphor of Holy Autumn and quietly rolled my head.

“… … Is Chaekyung a fox pretending to be a dog?”

“Oh, Chaekyung? There was a time when you yelled at me for being a cocky bitch and a strange bitch, but now you’re Chae-kyung? Just a few more weeks, honey, will you do it?”

“No, we were enemies then, and now we are part of the same family. Of course it should be called differently.”

“Oh my – the person who is so good at making distinctions is so loud that I should only trust him, and all he does is mess around in the conference room and make a fuss?”

“No- that’s my grand plan-”

for a moment.

I quietly closed my mouth as I continued to hastily make excuses and kept my eyes on her.

As I looked at her glaring at me with narrowed eyes, a faint smile automatically came out of my mouth for some reason.

“What is it? Are you jealous of Chaekyung?”

“… … The end.”

Seong Ga-eul erased his expression at my question and went back to shuffling through the documents.

… … what.

What’s the end all of a sudden?

Before I could overcome this absurd embarrassment, I heard her voice.

“You think I made you jealous, so you can sleep well tonight, right? This is the end of the special service.”

“… … Huh.”

I opened my lips, which still wouldn’t close, and continued speaking.

“… … what. Please do just a little more. How can you stop suddenly like this?”

“Here it is.”

“No- Perfect, perfect, but why is the service like this? Please do this perfectly.”

Hearing my compliment, Seong Ga-eul raised her head and showed a customer service smile.

“This doesn’t have to be perfect either, Master.”

“… … It seems like you’re using it more and more like a comforting macro.”

“… … Ss—.”

… … what?

For a moment, I thought I had misheard, so I widened my eyes and asked back.

“… … Did you just copy me that?”

“Holly Sheat―”

“Chaamna― How dare you―”

I couldn’t continue the sentence due to the elegant pronunciation that didn’t match the tone.

I shook my head, repeating ‘Truly…’ at the laughter that kept coming out of me.

“Anyway, if we don’t want to be dragged around like that, we can monopolize the information that Seongju doesn’t know.”

“… … Information that Seongju doesn’t know?”

Exactly!

Seong Ga-eul clicked her fingers and nodded before continuing.

“The system favors us. No, the system is discriminating against us. There’s something more important than this. Why?”

Why is the system interfering with every step we take?

“… … Wasn’t it because of the trials and tribulations and the stories or something?”

“So why. Why do we need trials, suffering, and stories?”

“… … Oh.”

I haven’t thought about that.

“Isn’t it just giving them the right skills or telling them to have fun?”

“So why do you need to give appropriate skills and why should it be fun?”

“… … How far do you have to climb?”

“Perhaps we are being dragged by Seongju because we did not understand the exact needs of the system.”

What the system wants.

Trials and suffering, something that needs to be told.

The fundamental reason why the system has had to make interventions that are sometimes felt as favoritism or discrimination.

“You have to understand the true meaning of the system first, not Seongju… … .”

“That doesn’t mean that we should be buried in one thing. Once you know what the system wants, once you know its preferred framework. Within that framework, in its own way-”

“You get space to move freely.”

Seong Ga-eul shrugs his shoulders at my words and lowers his head towards the documents again.

I continued thinking while stroking my chin.

The reason why he refused to simply surrender and held a large-scale event.

The reason why I, who doubts Seongju, and Seongju in black, trying to prove his surrender, were brought up on stage.

“So, you are saying that we need to understand the intention of the questions that the teachers said during the CSAT?”

“Wow, it doesn’t really suit our Guwon who used the CSAT as an example.”

“Yes― Even if you say that sarcastically, it doesn’t hurt at all―. After all, it’s an autumn dream! When I say, ‘Do it,’ they do everything!”

“Yes. Then you search.”

I didn’t have the energy to react to Seong Ga-eul’s words.

Rather than Seongju, which makes my head hurt just thinking about it, I used my brain to find the reason for the system’s annoying discrimination.

“Ah! And!”

A voice calling me as if I had forgotten something.

When I turned my head, Seong Ga-eul opened her mouth as if she had been waiting.

“I’m sure you’re getting tired of messing around with the fox, so why don’t you have lunch together?”

“… … Ah, now that I think about it, it’s been a long time since I had lunch with Ayoung and Joohye.”

“Let’s have dinner with those kids and lunch with me.”

“No, why? I feel like Ayoung’s expression is really bad these days―”

“This doesn’t really mean company welfare.”

bang-!

Seong Ga-eul interrupts the conversation and lightly taps the desk.

She picked up a document on her desk and flapping it around as she spoke.

“While they are sleeping, I am looking through documents like this. Of course, shouldn’t I get a bigger return, right, leader?”

“That’s natural―”

The mouth quietly closes again like before.

My shoulders gradually rose upward toward Seong Ga-eul, who was looking at me confidently.

return.

It’s a return… … .

“Yes. This is true, as the return of Seong Ga-eul before becoming the leader of the One Mind Salvation Church, I really did not pay attention to welfare. This is my fault as Seong Ga-eul’s return.”

“Toto- Are you excited to be praised?”

“Autumn. Is this sex?”

“Really- every time I talk to you, something never ends beautifully.”

Seong Ga-eul frowns and touches his forehead.

“That’s very annoying.”

Seong Ga-eul’s next words were a deep sigh as she looked at me apologizing with an apologetic expression.

I couldn’t help but laugh at her regretful complaints.

“Ah… … I forgot about that. That’s the most annoying thing.”